Frustrated!

From yesterday's journal entry in my sketchbook.

I don't want to live a boring life. It seems like life only offers you so many options. Finish high school, do more schooling, get a job. Doesn't matter which job, work everyday to take care of yourself. Get married, maybe, have kids, like everyone else. They grow up and you're left to grow old along with your aging house. BORING!

It would be cool to be in a band. Tour the world. Spend all your time with your fellow band members who by choice gradually become more like family. You get to spend your life doing what you love to do. Unfortunately, I am not a musician and music will never impact my life in such big ways. Oh, why don't we have bands of artists?

I would rather spend my days starving on the streets of Toronto than living a typical life that means nothing when it's done. I actually really wouldn't mind that. I'd start up a community of friends, all in the same boat, we'd pool all our resources so that no need would go unmet.

Humph... this is starting to sound like the early church, Whatever happened to that old system? What we have now isn't better. We need to get that started again. It's been way too long to go without...